The love of my life

It was a Sunday morning and my friend Mark was starting his sermon. Mark and I have not always been the best of friends, and that’s my fault rather than his, but for what he was about to say I will forever be in his debt.

We often hear people say that their husband or wife, boyfriend or girlfriend, is the love of their life. For others, it’s their child, and for still others it’s an activity, a sport, music – even their work! A year or so ago I was surprised to discover mine. This is how it happened.

Mark asked us to form small groups of three or four people, just where we sat, and to answer a question. This was the introduction to his talk. The question – as I remember it – was, “Who is Jesus to you?” I didn’t know the others in my group too well and I waited for them to answer first. They gave good answers such as I might have given myself had not the Holy Spirit put some different words in my mouth – words that came straight from my heart. So out it came: “He’s the love of my life.” I can’t think about it without being overcome again and I’m typing this with tears in my eyes. It’s hard to see the keyboard and the screen. But I’m not ashamed. It was a wonderful revelation. I didn’t know it was true until I said it, but then I had no doubt.

Jesus is the love of my life!

This doesn’t mean I always stay close to Him or always obey Him, but this relationship is at the core of my being, and for that I am profoundly grateful – both to Him and to Mark for asking the question that evoked this revelation.

I’ve been through phases where music was the love of my life, then my girlfriend – who became my fiancée and subsequently my wife. I didn’t know I could love Jesus with my heart, so He was limited to my mind. Later there was very little love in my life at all. My emotions were frozen for a long time and I felt unloved. But over recent years, God has been thawing them out and has given me the gift of Jesus as “the love of my life”; as far as I’m concerned, no-one else is worthy of that title. I didn’t decide this or make it happen, it is God’s grace and a gift from Him. I didn’t ask for it either, but I’m sure He’s willing to give it to anyone who does ask.

Of course, loving Him in this way doesn’t exclude anyone else! It releases love in me for my wife and children and friends, too. And sometimes even for those I don’t know at all: for a stranger on the metro (subway) who looks sad and needs a kind word. Sometimes the love He pours into me just overflows (see A Barrel of Love). And with this love comes security and boldness too!

Perhaps, then, these are two questions worth asking yourself:

  • Who is Jesus to me?
  • Who is the love of my life?

The answers may surprise you. Whatever they are, remember there is no condemnation, no guilt, no shame. Jesus has taken care of all that. But you may want to ask for the gift I received. You won’t regret it!

Now for me, as for Brooke Fraser in this beautiful song, there is None but Jesus.

“None But Jesus”

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret of your presence
I know there I am restored
When you call I won’t refuse
Each new day, again I’ll chooseThere is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praiseIn the chaos, in confusion
I know you’re sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do your will
When you call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

I am yours and you are mine…

All my delight is in you Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in you Lord
For evermore

3 thoughts on “The love of my life

  1. Indeed, a great read! If we could all see that we are the loves of Jesus’ life, we would open ourselves to a new realm of fulfillment. Satisfaction in whatever He has for us, because we are certain that He will always give us His best. One of my prayers is for God to align my heart only with what He has for me:)
    Thanks for this great post Stephen!

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